Winter seems to have wrapped its creaking, bony fingers around our city already. You can feel them darting up your spine, leaving frozen fingerprints on the back of your neck as you hurry down the bleak streets, chased by fallen leaves – the dead nipping at your heels.Midnight at 7:00 pm.
I was bundled up in a charcoal wool coat with the collar pulled high around on my neck, turning my own shadow into a lurking inkblot on the sidewalk. From streetlight to streetlight, it would twist and stretch in agony, turning from Dr. Jekyll to Mr. Hyde every four or five slabs. Neither personality seemed all too pleased about being bound to my sneakers.
The sound of the car engine in the distance lingered as I walked away from my parents’ house. I drowned it out with my iPod, realizing that the haunting quality of a Damien Rice song is not always relaxing.
Fact: my parents live across the street from a graveyard. Three trees stand over the graves that contort about five feet up their gnarled and warted trunks. I love them – nothing is naturally creepier than these trees. In the right light, they are cocked wrists with sharp claws on their many fingers. The hands of a puppeteer, plucking the strings of a fallen marionette. Fact: some nights I don’t like the walk home from my parents’ place.
The streetlights are sparse – too few to fight off the blackness that quickly envelopes the street in between each one. I’m not afraid of the dark. I haven’t been since I was a kid. I’m not afraid of the dark.
I would walk faster but when I was very young I decided that our ghosts and monsters can tell when we are nervous and that makes them stronger. I’m a grown man now. I am stronger and my calm, steady pace will tell them just that. I am NOT afraid of the dark.
I come to the end another pool of darkness toward another circle of light on the pavement.
Step. Step. Step.
I take a deep breath in, ready to smarten up and let go of childish fears.
Step. Step.
Directly underneath the lamp
Step.
my exhale turns into a moan as the bright beacon fades instantly to black hitting me like a punch to the stomach. I freeze but for my eyes scrambling to adjust to the sudden return to night. Grow up! You’re in Dartmouth – ghosts and monsters are the least of your worries. You are NOT afraid of the dark.
Step. Step. Step. Step. Step.
My stride becomes a bit of a scamper to the end of the block and the next streetlight. This one shutting off in sync with the pound of my foot against the sidewalk and the end of the song in my ears, making the loudest silence I have ever heard.
Step. Step. Step. Step. Step. Step. Step. Step. Step. Step.
I hesitate before stepping into the next pool of light. Three is more than a coincidence. Three is something else. Three and I’m licensed to be scared. My eyes close as my foot pauses in air before crashing into the crosswalk.
Step.
The light still shines brightly as they open, squinting from both the contrast against the night and the giddy smile of relief on my face. I stand briefly, letting the light wash away my inner child before turning face my shadow leering on the pavement, swirling to meet the darkness closing around the lone lamppost.
Age be damned. It’s still okay for me to hurry home.




It was a very funny weekend. It is a well-known fact within my family that I am the attention-seeker of the offspring. In all honesty, I'm not quite sure how my brother resisted smothering me with a pillow long ago. "Ben did this!" "Ben's doing that!" "Isn't Ben special?"



